Laptop and Must Have List!

Yeay! finally I have a laptop.. When my mother came here from Taiwan to visit my Father
their graduation gift for me is a Laptop..yeay! I'm so excited that now I have my own laptop. I don't need to borrow our family laptop anymore..

finally they gave me my #1 must have gadget in my life

here's my must have list:
1.) Laptop (although i have..may laptop dream is Panasonic toughbook..Yeay!)
2.) n95 cellphone (not much of a thing but i definitely want a newer cellphone.heheh!)
3.) ps3 (definitely must have especially i'm an RPG gamer..)

it's not much of a list but this is the things I must have! I really hope when I graduate I can fulfill my must have list.. Now that I can have buy all that I want since I will finally have a compensation for working..^_^

I just hope when I go to America I will find a job that related to my studies. Dreams.. hay! I just hope I can succeed.. No.. I must say.. I WILL Succeed! hehehe!! I will prove to those people that I can make it and be independent and more mature from now on..

10,000 BC

My boyfriend and I were celebrating our 19th monthsary and we decided to watch some movie. He insisted we watch 10,000 bc since his friend said that It was a good movie. At first, I don't like it because its some first age kind of story or something brutal yet good movie like 300.

So, since he insisted I stand by his choice that we watched that movie. We went to Robinson to watch that movie and our money was so worth it when we watch that movie. The Movie is good. The effect are great and the story was cute.. It tells that no man can above us except GOD.. Also tha prophecy thing is very cute. At first i didn't understand the prophecy but as soon as it gets to the plot I understood it. Now I understand also why its called 10,000 BC..hahahah! Its the time when the egypt is building their pyramids and start building their nation. I range it 9 out of 10. Plus I like the girl who played the main character. Camilla Belle is so pretty in that movie.

Because of YOU

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Why???Why??

Why do I always keeps on hurting the one i loved..
Eventhough I never meant to hurt them
but I still keeps on hurting them..

What is wrong with me?
Do I take them for granted?
I'm soo confused and frustrated..
I don't intend but I keeps on hurting them...

I just hope that I don't let them down again..
I don't want to hurt them anymore..

I don't want to be alone..
but when I'm around them
I always end up hurting them...
and It breaks my heart..:(